Bad Dream or Is This Your Life?

Bad Dream or Is This Your Life?

Feelings of desperation,

Overwhelmed,

Too many forks in the road,

Too many dead ends,

Sinking, drowning, dying.

Elusive beams of sunlight,

So small,

Groping in the dark,

Trying to pull myself up,

Nothing to hold, no substance, nothing real.

Guarding, balancing on a ray,

What... a path?

Or more roadblocks?

More traps to catch my dwindling cash?

Cannibals.

Hopelessness,

A trillion pounds on my chest,

Are there no steps?

No uplifting hands?

Naked... verticals and bones.

Spinning,

No direction,

Consciousness slipping,

More anesthesia, more programming,

Administer the awakened sleep!

Close my eyes,

Extinguish my hopes,
Pat me on the head,
Keep me under your thumb
Until I am dead.